Until My Last String Snaps

As a leader, you are expected to be on top of every situation, no matter how minor it is and even more so when it is huge. 

December is a month of breaking barriers, utilization of funds to zero and making sure that every target is hit bull's eye. 

And yet, there are personnel who, no matter how long they have been doing the job, can't seem to give focus to the requirement. 

I cannot simply ignore the fact that a direct report has been repeatedly giving me headaches, here and there since the start of my stint. If that was deliberate, I do not know, but in my mind, that was a low class act of incompetence and inability to cope to change and to pressure. 

I am a person who wants things done in a snap. I do not delegate much. In as much as I can do it, I will do it, and do not leave things be in the hands of my staff who are not technically equipped to do such tasks. 

This December has been tough! But what can be tougher than a subordinate who doesn't do justice to the call for urgent matters. 

I can be kind, at least I wanted to be kind. And each time I say this, it is a personal struggle. I need to have patience to be able to stay kind. 

And I can only be kind until my last string snaps.