I have made myself quite anxious for a month now. Well, almost.
I applied for a position that I really wanted but since this is a government post, I have undergone the tedious process of selection and promotion - exams, interviews, and the paranoia of waiting for the result.
Of course, it is a valid feeling when we get excited for the result of something we have been waiting for.
Just like this promotion, I guess I am excited because I want the anxiety to end. I have been sleepless for a number of days last week, and have been fighting the urge to wake up in the middle of the night overthinking about my actions. Did I sound good in the interview? Have I made myself clear in my intentions? Was I articulate in my answers? Did they see me competent? And many others...
The election ban is nearing (March 25) and we are all waiting for the 4 positions to be filled, as appointments are actually made by the Central Office.
I may also be under a lot of stress lately because my headaches haven't subsided. There must be something wrong with me but I fear for what I will discover. Pretty sure the husband will be mad at me for tolerating the pain a tad longer. Must be the hormones though.
So let's wait and see. After all, I have made a vow to always make a better version of myself, with or without the promotion.
"Life was always a matter of waiting for the right moment to act."
- Paulo Coelho